i usually dont waste my time replying to people who would judge and analyze my life and ethics, rather than build a life of their own. but this message was a perfect mashup of the things ive been getting lately, and as much as i dont care, im going to take the opportunity to clear up a few things.
if i wanted to brag about the opportunities im given, the people i meet, the friendships that are built, i easily could. however, i find it tasteless and uncalled for as well as disrespectful, so i dont. to post polaroids, whether on my website, instagram or twitter, is just as fair as sharing your music, artwork, and/or photos of your friends. “its not the same”, why? as far as i know, they are just pictures, whether the subject is my mother or jillian banks. they are both just people, and if you knew anything about my project, you would know thats exactly the point im trying to make. im not interested in the fame or the name these individuals have made for themselves. not everyone has the intention of taking advantage of peoples statuses. i didnt start this project because i wanted to get close to famous people and use them. yes, ive made friends along the way, but that was never the goal. i was attending shows way before i started the polaroid project and when given the chance, i would exchange a few words with the artists. im a curious being, i love meeting new people and theres nothing like a sincere conversation face to face. eventually i started taking pictures as well, and yes, at the beginning i would wait around after shows, but i always asked permission to snap the pictures and never have i imposed myself. i have been drunk and made a fool of myself before, but ive always been respectful and genuine. whenever you start something, the hardest part is to get the ball rolling. you have to work and use what you have, and thats what i did. with time i built a portfolio, which created credibility, and now i always contact management prior to shows.
this project means the world to me and i take it very seriously and professionally. i consider it my job and finance everything myself, so if i didnt care about it and the meaning behind it, i wouldnt invest so much time, energy and money into it. so, sorry to ruin your fantasy, but i dont hook up or give blow jobs in order to get the pictures. you dont always have to be “sly and manipulative” and fuck your way into getting things. to you it might just look like a lot of fun - going to shows all the time and meeting these people - and it is, but i work my ass off. it can be exhausting, and it requires sacrifices and full commitment.
with that said, you are free to say and think whatever you want. ill keep investing all my heart in what i do, whether people like/respect my work or not.